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Starting the Walk

I haven't written in a while because I haven't known how. Let me be honest, Year 2 is harder than Year 1. It means I'm starting Year 3 and, well, I don't really look forward to another year without.

On the first anniversary of Avery's death we released balloons. Hundreds of balloons. 



And it was good!
This year, I wanted to do something not so public. So, I went to Haiti and celebrated life with my sponsor son.


And it was good!
And then I came home and my world was thrown upside down - and it was awful. And then came that slow realization that it had been upside down the entire time; I had simply been trying to force it upright for the past seven years. 
And my soul was exhausted. 
And my heart wouldn't hurt anymore.
And even disappointment didn't affect me. 
I sat in a daze for a good long while before realizing I could sit and stare at walls until I could scream in hurt before staring at walls again until the end of my days... but that wouldn't change a…